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systematically prevailed as*: diary;

(Monday, May 19, 2008-)
+11:15 AM]*

# weary3-

went out for kbox again

yeah 2nd session this long weekend, like wahey

and i did quite well

not as i expected

like started off with jay's hei se mao yi straight away

then tried all the hard songs lurh!

wahaha

tired seh

thanks phil and serene once more. :D

but there's like only one person that can be as high as me during kbox

yeahyeah, zhumingkai :D

we better go kbox often

even if i'd have to wait with you till 1.

oh and tried your hei se you mo techniques

eh i'm trying!

hope you're reading this lurh

like waha

aha but i've still got alot more to train on

to improve on my vocals

waha, you have good performances

you'd have bad ones as well

i'd rather give it all my best than fight it all out to be above someone else

and fail and push myself up again

oh well

let's just hope that i still have the voice to sing tmrw when i wake up

then that'll show how versatile my voice is after like 4+ hours of nonstop singing these past two days

like wahaha

alright

i'm off to bed

its really been a nice weekend

even if many things happened

holidays should quickly come by

and gimme a total break lurh.

universal.
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(Sunday, May 18, 2008-)
+1:02 PM]*

# genocide-

its been quite a day

fucked up shit

but its nice to at least know i was there for you

humility

oh yes and i've been a selfish bastard

let's just go down the undergrounds

and beg for love

uglyugly

i should just immerse myself in the chalky dull waters

of a broken pond

with the moon as the only thing close to perfection

where can i find these psychedelics

psilocybin and all sorts

and mind manifest all i can

all up to level 5

and wahey i'm in outer space

looking at you from your eyes

while realizing i'm all this, that and all of them

and sinking into permanent brain damage

contaminating all those beautiful contradictions

and thoughts alike

other that all that, thanks for the kbox session

high and flyflyfly

maybe it wasn't a fucked up day

just some day that let me down

oh there's holiday tmrw

i really don't wanna go out on a holiday

where people surface the once silent places

i just wanna sleep the whole day through

and make people smile :"oh yay he's not online today

let's do some photoshop on that uglyugly"

okay maybe its all black and white

i really don't see much colour in anything already

only black and white

someone save me from this grayscale genocide

alright

i'm just gonna have a nice chat with my teddy bear

and sink into deep sleep

radiohead and all

just create a pop song

and cheer me up

thankyou

universal.
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(Friday, May 16, 2008-)
+1:21 PM]*

# i'm flying over the melody-

who doesn't love jamiroquai ?

virtual insanity

without this beautiful the awesome video couldn't have been awesome

wahahaha .

love it lurh .

caught the rest of the collection of doraemon with brainer and dear today

like brainer was quite pro XD

jiayou luh !

speaking of it

i've been decorating everything in black and white

eh there's that sense of mystery

which makes me want to

daze into it

everytime i take a glance

and that makes it attractive

there must be colour

but right now, black and white will do its charm .

tmrw's gonna be a busy day

come to speak of it

when were saturdays never busy ?

i'm still pondering over my confirmation name lurh !

which goes as my middle name

i don't think i can choose lukano or lukaa

only if its a name of a saint

like phooey

waha

mum thought of : asshole

yeah, how cool

and like i'll scold someone everytime i say my name :D

or am i scolding myself ? :P

hmm .

had a nice chat with a taxi driver on the way to ecp

quite cool

never expected him to scold those drivers in his way motherfuckers and assholes

in front of me

guess he knew i'd wouldn't feel him being rude

but he's quite good in psychology

oh man , he saw the pattern in what i was saying

and hit the nail on the spot

waha

but i digged him on a few questions too ! xD

but its like i think i lost my earphones in his car

luckily i remembered his name and car plate number

hooray i may be talking to him again

like so funny luh

he asked me what i could do with music as my career

and said no way

unless i'm abroad

and then knew he was like the lead guitarist or smth in a famous hotel

like waha, i don't wanna believe he's kidding at that point

since he told me more

but maybe i'm so obsessed with music

i wanna give it a try

it seems that i'm losing my touch on feeling the groove

and the real feel of a piece of music

as easily
now i'm like listening for the drum beats

and the piano or guitar

the electronic synthesized beats or riffs

and the techniques of the singer

or for instrumental , the concept going through the composer's head

like although i'm not even professionally trained on any type of instrument

i really have that feel i'll be able to do it

ahaha. let's hope i'll be able do it ?
waka.

alright

oyasumi desu

and its a brand new tomorrow

to wake up from this damnedass slumber of lateness .

universal.
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(Tuesday, May 13, 2008-)
+10:58 AM]*

# weary2-

it seems i'd to rely on blogging

to keep awake

but i really wanna sleep now

yawn

if they wanna piss me off

let them do it then

i just dont wanna see

their boss

being pissed off

and then treating em like piss

i'd no idea what i wanna do during hols

maybe drum lessons ?

ive got alot to learn

seriously

i really wanna just drum

accompanying the guitars and piano

in an impromptu way

or maybe piano or music theory

waha i'd love those i guess

ah ah ah

alright id guess i want my bed now

aha

oyasumi desu

universal.
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(Monday, May 12, 2008-)
+1:15 PM]*

# subconscious-

sometimes you're so tired
till you emerge into this psychedelic feeling

it feels surreal
and it seems i spent much of my midnights
in this psychedelic world
which seems awesome

but its total hangover is just
yeah, tiredness

maybe i'd be out tomorrow shopping
aha
or maybe stay at home and do some drawing
i'd been wanting to do a seatown
a city along a river
or smth
it'll seem real perfect uh!

i'd realized even if you're an avid fan of music
you've gotta listen to what you think is junk
like i've got some i call junk
but at least they're not some groaning with guitars that sound like car screeches
that's real crap, alright

spent midnight talking to chidunster
wahey, stayed up through
maybe it was just that i was talking too much
and was too high
to realize i'm actually kinda tired :P
okay you've heard it
but don't force me to sleep , aha

i don't know
i suppose school after exams
is just
for referencing purposes? XP
so i don't have to go lurh
waheee

oh and i tried out some chords
which sound like crap
i'd to devote time in hols for music classes already
i'll improve , waha

and check out manic street preachers' cover of umbrella
omg they've rawked on since 1990s
and they still rawk
aha

alright.
i'm really yawning
byebye
sweetdreams
xoxo

universal.
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(Sunday, May 11, 2008-)
+11:59 AM]*

# tired-

alright

i'm going to sleep already

today was a stinking day

total apathy

most of the day in bed

screaming in pain

was terribly sick

and weak

felt real terrible

didn't even have the energy to move

i'm feeling better now

thankgod

oyasumi

i'm off

and outta here

thanks for everything, everyone (:

universal.
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(Saturday, May 10, 2008-)
+10:15 AM]*

# the tower under the planting grounds-

it seems i've been having this scene in my dreams
i would work and toil on a planting ground
growing weeds

then there would be a tower
of metal
looks like a radio tower
that's red on top
and white below

there's a piece of rope hanging right down from the top to the bottom
in the middle of the tower
there seems to be 2 elevators
and people work up there
and the tower elevators and stuff are made of cement
which contradicts with my other scene that the tower was of metal

i'd only remember that one of them had golden hair
and i call him Goldie, for some reason

that scene under the tower is the most surreal
there was one time one guy
wearing a helmet
tied himself to the rope from the tower top
and dived down
in a magnificent way

then another time at night
when Goldie was heading off
i wanted to use the rope
from the bottom
instead of the elevators

i tied myself to it
and floated above the ground
but
i never got up

i went out and wanted to do some planting

and that's when the story ends

yeah i really can't understand why i have weird dreams
but i know no one bothers anyway

oh, and my greatgrandmother which i never knew was cremated today
it hurts to know i never even knew her
let alone feel her presence
which i can't now

death hurts
and it'll hurt forever

cherish, alright
they're all here for you

alright
i'd think i'd sleep soon
and maybe these weird dreams are really freaking me out

oyasumi

universal.
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(Thursday, May 8, 2008-)
+11:29 AM]*

# the seventh pagoda under siege-

it feels as if i wanna rest
sleep for 36 hours
1and1/2 of a a day
how great would it be

its like a surreal abscond out of the real world
since not many care anyway

how many can i turn to
and talk to

maybe its because i'm always late
and clumsy and dumb
and always trying to perfect everything
which always fails

then i'm sorry
but don't shun me away
cause i really don't have many of you around already

i so wanna sleep and keep sleeping
but i can't

but i'm going to
i really hope i will
and then i'd wake up the next morning
and miss a whole chapter of day and night
and its anguish
but yet, destroy all opportunity

let's hope i'd be able to realize
that its only right
that most of the time
only has me in charge
alone

oyasumi

universal.
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(Wednesday, May 7, 2008-)
+7:52 PM]*

# the red airplane in the hangar2-

finally. its over
i mean my midyears
andyeah
its an awesome load being taken away

i've been sleeping much of late
its kinda scary
course i'll sleep on till someone wakes me up
or some noise comes about

but the dreams are fascinating, i suppose
mostly surreal

i've not dreamt of it yet
but again that red airplane in my mind flies around
and crashes

they always do uh, airplanes in my mind
for some reason
the only thing they'd do is boom bang and byebye

i really hope my blog isn't as dead as it is
(:

in my skool library again
but there seems to be people around, aha

librarian heard me playing Joe Hisaishi on my blog
and we had a good chat on nice instrumental music
i like that kinda thing uh
his music is absolutely well done anyway

now that this midyear exam thing is over
i don't know
maybe i'd to work

the only thing that keeps me from all this is that
i'm afraid i'd not be able to accomplish it
ah

or maybe i'd just spend some time on music classes
and get some music done up?
let's just hope i'm not too stressed out after my midyears to even write a song

maybe i'd fly over to taiwan or australia
and live over there
that sounds fun
but i'd be killing off my only group of wonderful friends

or i should just live up in a tree with a squirrel or smth
don't worry, i'm nuts enough to share em' with you, i suppose

emaths was like of total bleah-ness
it felt terrible

alright. guess i'd better get lunch.
cya.

universal.
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(Tuesday, May 6, 2008-)
+9:24 PM]*

# the red airplane in the hangar-

(:
alone in my skool library now
i'd guess you'd won't be interested

addmaths paper was kinda, fun :P
i had cheery voices inside me telling me to keep up
but i'd think i'd only be able to get 50 or 60 /80

i couldn't slap myself during accounts paper
like, bleah
i just forgot everything
at least its only one part of the whole thing uh

thanks so much brainerdaddy for giving me this urghhhh
this dumb halfyear challenge to solve to this dumb bleaaah
5x5 cube

but let's hope i get it done
if not i can break the cube right? :D
waha

i'd always been advicing myself on getting things done
and maybe i'd ought to tell myself life's gotta be a lil cheery

but the hate's all concentrated on that asshole
who knows he's chumming up on something'd bad

hmm. i'd think i'd love being alone in the library all the time
(:

universal.
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(Tuesday, April 29, 2008-)
+10:59 PM]*

# weary-

i'm feeling alright

i think

chinese paper just over

bleah, got a headache at the start of the exam

went toilet, washed up

hope i don't do that bad

at least there's a break tmrw

aha. i could use that very much uh

opened it up again

i just came up with the sunlight twilight thing in like less than a minute :x

sweet idea uh. :P

alright, i'll chat later

goodnight (:
waha.

universal.
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(Saturday, April 26, 2008-)
+7:54 AM]*

# abscond2-

OMG i'm tagged by a preeety chidunster. say HELLO .

1) At what age do you wish to marry? : when she wants to. WAHA.
2) Study hard or play hard? : both at the right time.
3) Who is the person you trust the most? : hmm. Jesus i guess.
4) Do you think you have enough confidence? : nope i'm a coward :D
5) If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be? : for all my dreams to come true.
6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? : let's see them when they're here for us to see.
7) What is your goal for this year? : alot of goals. one of them is to know how to drum.
8) Do you believe in eternity love? : i can carve both our names on a rock to show our love, but it still wouldn't last till eternity. (:
9) Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide? : i really don't know. :X
10) What feeling do you love the most? : when people love me, i suppose
11) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half ? : that i'll be the most in her heart when she really has me in mind.
12) What feeling do you hate the most? : suicide.
13) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours? : yea, but i don't like to take them as a list and reshuffle them here and there. its the memory and heart that counts uh.
14) Do you believe in GOD? : of course. specifically Jesus Christ ba. waha.
15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life? : to always be thinking about this question over and over again.
16) Who do you hope to be always there for you? : family, friends, and you.
17) Whose your best friends? : :D
18) Who cares for you the most? : Jesus. :D waha.
19) Describe the person who tagged you in 5words : a stinking asshole. 5 words ain't enough la.
20) Do you deserve love? : we're all to depend on others since we were born. why not? (:

rinko chidunster uh, let your boyfie or g.boyfie give you those bouquet of flowers la, xD
waha. they'd be more closer to you then me. :D

takecare. (:

universal.
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